And why we're on the subject

What, exactly, is it about me that's so scary?

Nevermind. I'm pretty sure I know what it is, even if she doesn't. It's pretty easy, actually.

I give of myself so easily. I guess for someone, who, like most of us, has so many barriers built up around their heart, it's hard to understand someone, especially someone so recently out of the kind of relationship she thinks I must have had with Steph, who is so willing to be so open. But that's what makes me different I guess. I don't want any of the games. I don't want to do the dance. I don't want to worry about what ifs, whys, or hows. Fuck. Just DO it. You know? Why does it have to be so complicated? Yeah, so if it doesn't work out, it doesn't work out. Big deal. It hurts for awhile, you cry, you write sad songs, you write mad songs, you move on with your life. Most likely to do the whole thing again.

So what if I want to skip the superficial stage? I don't want that. I don't need it. I want something real. I'm not really sure what that means, real. So whatever. Sorry if I say things that scare you. But I'm sure I will. I'm not like anyone you've ever met before. And that's not ego talking.